blog your heart

I never put anything very personal on this blog.

I admit I am scared to...

it's partly that I not very good at putting my thought into words,

it's part that I worry about being judged, 

do people really want to hear what I have to say anyway?

But then I read blogs, like Stephanie Howell,

and she amazes me. It's the realness of her blog that I LOVE.

And she has issued a challenge to blog from the heart.

so here goes....

I have put myself last for too long,

I'm not just a wife and mom,

I am a woman first, I want to feel attractive. Can you believe I just went out shopping

for some new bras and realized it had been 2 years since I had done

that. Why? why don't I take care of myself? I want to

feeling like I did when I was dating my husband and

everything was fun and new. Of course I love my kids, my family,

but life has a way of taking over and it seems lately that

it has sucked out all it can from me.

Add in a job that, well let me rephrase that,

add in difficult people at the job, and some days

I feel so negative and angry.

I hate it, and I hate myself for letting it get to me.

So I have begun to make some changes.

I have started a diet and I have lost 6 lbs so far and I feel pretty good.

I got new bras, like I said, and new underwear, cute, sexy ones!

I am training for a new job and hopefully will change

field completely in a few months.

I'm making changes and I can see a little ray of sunshine 

a little pep back in my step.

and it feels great!

baby steps to a happier me!

you know what...that wasn't so hard!!!